liebster award

Thank you to anadancer for nominating me. I’ve felt invisible most of my life like I’m in the back row of the theater looking out on everyone else. When people acknowledge my presence it used to catch me by surprise, it still does in some ways. However, now I also get a warm feeling like […]

Fog and pain

Getting the energy up to write this is difficult. Living with fibromyalgia is, at times, no big deal, at others…. taxing. I’ve been in a fibro fog for over a week now. Why? Because recovering from an eating disorder is difficult and stress inducing to say the least. I’ve not been on point with recovery. […]


I just did a major food challenge: ate out at a cafe for lunch. What made it even more difficult was that they had run out of most of what were options for me to choose from. The saving grace was having learned how to make quick choices when we did restaurant challenges in treatment. […]

reacting when invalidated

When I was in iOP I had problems with anxiety attacks and was over reacting in different situations. The thing is, I couldn’t identify what was triggering those reactions at the time. Sometimes they were explosive which is so not me!! Afterwards I’d feel a lot of guilt and shame. That would trigger my other […]

rip romeo

How do I express how I feel right now. I might as well use their names since I’ve posted (and am reposting) a link to their website. It was all of us: myself, Peggy, John (her boyfriend/ grounds keeper), and Bill (the barn manager). I got there early and had a chance to groom Romeo one last […]

post discharge, not as smooth as I had hoped

So much has happened that I ought to have been writing everyday but there I am and clearly I haven’t. I’m thinking I’ll put the highlights… Tuesday I hadn’t mentioned in my last post the difficulties I had the evening of discharge day. As soon as I got home I got a call from a […]