Assessment moved up!

Yikes, the moved my assessment date to this coming Monday, 23rd😮!! I feel like I need to lose as much weight as possible, lol. I know… utterly stupid and obviously unachievable. Plus, I’m hoping I don’t have to go. If I can do good this weekend, and today then maybe I can do this at home. That is the hope although it looks abysmal that I can. 😒

This is super scary and not for any of the reasons that you’d think. I’m scared because I feel like when they see me they’ll think I’m full of crap, that I really don’t have an ED, or that I’m just a hypochondriac or something. Or they’ll think I have binge eating disorder because I feel like I’m big as a house. Rationally I realize that I’m not technically obese if I’m wearing size 2 but that’s really not the point. In my mind I’m wearing a size 22! 

The other thing is that what if my insurance approves me????? It really looks like it will too. If they said No that would relieve me of the responsibility of having to make a decision. I’m such a coward, honestly! 

Now, how to get through the next 3 days….. crochet, crochet, crochet I suppose and binge watch A Series of Unfortunate Events on Netflix. 👍

I’m super anxious right now which is usually relieved by exercise which I’m not supposed to do. I might just say sod it and go for a walk though. I’ll try not to. 

Oh, and it’s not residential. It’s a partial program but has supervised housing which is need since, left on my own, I’d exercise whatever calories they forced me to eat. 🏃‍♀️

Strrrreeeeeeeesssssssss……

On a positive note I just picked up a super cute tunic to wear with jeans or leggings for when I go. Yeah, I know… I’m a freak. 

3 thoughts on “Assessment moved up!

    1. Hahaha, yeah, I’m making some strides on that, however, I’ve been doing loads of coloring. I got 2 ½ deigns done already! I love coloring; it’ll definitely be a tool in the future for dealing with anxiety.

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